I was asked, how are you?
I said, ‘fine’, thank you.
But I knew I wasn’t fine
I knew it was not the appropriate response.
‘Not fine’, would have been the right answer
I knew it, yet I said the wrong thing.
So I lied.
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Why?
I shouldn’t have
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How do I reveal to you, my dear friend?
That things are not what they seem
That like the Chameleon that changes its skin colour
I wear a camouflage
I shield myself in a mask
Wink, smile, laugh and dance
Because the truth is hard to tell sometimes
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How do I tell you that I ate Fufu?
And not Spaghetti
How do I tell you that I ate Pap and Akara Balls?
And not bread with omelettes
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How do I tell you that I borrowed money?
To buy the Aso-ebi
And didn’t pay cash and carry
How do I tell you that we are yet to pay the kids school fees?
And that I am worried sick of the consequences
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How do I tell you that he slapped me?
And that the dark goggles I wear
Is not fashion but a façade
To disguise my red eyes and dark patches
How do I tell you?
That I had cried my heart out
That sleep eluded me
Because I was caught up with emotions
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How do I tell you?
That jealousy and envy has eaten deep into me
Because life smiled on you
While my fortune is still sleeping
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How do I tell you the truth about things?
Tell me, how do I tell you that I detest peace?
That planning and plotting evil is my past-time
How do I tell you that the explosions and bombings
Are my handiwork?
How do I tell you the dark side of my heart?
How do I tell you?
The real me
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Our responses never reveal our inner flaws
We hide the bitter truth
And affirm to the contrary
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Aren’t we all liars?
Aren’t we all pretenders?
Wrapped up in false smiles
And in varied subtle ways
Say ‘Yes’ when we meant to say ‘No’